Uncover John (study E)

This is from my quiet time today by the river <3 (I'm going to miss my times by the river!).

Author Tim Keller understands the crucifixion to be the unique element of Christianity in which Jesus substitutes himself for us.
He is innocent but bears in his OWN death God's judgement on our sins.
He is the savior of the world.

Keller writes " The founders of every other major religion essentially comes as teachers not as saviors. They came to say "Do this and you find the divine". But Jesus came essentially as a SAVIOR rather than a teacher (he was a teacher too).
Jesus says "I am the divine come to you to do what you could not do for yourselves." The christian message is that we are saved not by our record, but by Christ's record."

That is so REMARKABLE! God pays the price we should have paid because he loves us so much.

Jessica's Testimony!!!

Here is the link to Jess's testimony which she shared at the Christian union tonight!
01/12/2015.
It was such an awesome event and a milestone in her life. I am blessed to have been a part of her journey and to see God take control in her life.
Thank you for your prayers xx

https://drive.google.com/file/d/0BxCXNoAKHDYfMnJ3OUhNQzN2dEE/view?usp=sharing

YAY to Unfriending

I just went and unfriended like 250 people! WAHOOO
It sounds terrrrrriiibbbllee but the thing is they won't even know I've unfriended them!! HAHA
Because we're not friends in non fb life. Like REAL life.

It's been something that has been on my heart to do for such a long time!!!
AND I DID IT AND IT WAS SO NICE.
It was like when I cleaned out my wardrobe, but I cleaned out my friends hahahaha I am such a bad person. I think you should unfriend me!! (Saves me the trouble.)

I'm sorry if I've unfriended you but you still want to be friends with me. But we both know that I haven't seen you since highschool or for YEARS or I will most likely never going to seee you again!

GOODBYE xoxo

Being in a rut.

On Monday I slept the whole day.
Like by the whole day I don't mean like wake up late. I just slept and slept. It was because I watched episodes of friends till morning.  I basically know what happens in each episodes of friends. I wish I can say the same with the bible!

I can blame it on my laziness to sleep early or my addiction to tv shows.  Or like I just felt the whole Paris thing sink in. I just kept watching videos of it, watching videos of Syria. And just feeling numb. I was away in central London when I heard about Paris, we were on our Christian union getaway/retreat/conference. And I think it all hit me late.

Like Joyce Meyer says where there is an abundance or an overflow of something in a particular area of your life it's the devils playground. I find that is the case for me with tv shows, cookies, food in general, biting my nails, the occasional swearing, body image issues, negative thoughts etc... When we endulge in something its no longer a  healthy relationship. The preacher from Christian Union (who is also the pastor of the church I'm attending at Kingston) was saying the more you try live by the law and the stricter you are..... the more likely you are going to fall into temptation. Let the spirit do the work.

Then a question popped into my head.
How do you explain that to a person who knows about Jesus and knows about the spirit but hasn't experienced the spirit... what do you say?
I think the Lord just told me to let him do the rest. Which is the easiest answer and the best solution.

Anyway this was not the topic I wanted to write about haha... my point is there is nothing we can do by being so caught up in the evil in this world. Where we get so upset and overwhelmed by the tragedies of the world. God is telling us not to worry. So give it to God. Trust in him. He has placed you in the place you are at right now for a reason. Even if you're scared that London may be the next "target". There's no point living in fear.
In conclusion NZ is the safest place. So go live there haha

Pedestal

Jessica and I were talking at a lovely bar in Dublin. 

Jess started telling me about her thoughts before she was about to confess something she did that she wasn't proud of. She had a moment where she didn't want to mention it. This was because she told me she put me up on a pedestal. A higher level than she was at; which made her want to retain the information/ wrong doing / confession. She said that she was afraid of the judgement and how it was something "beneath me" so she shouldn't even mention it. 

When she told me this I was like "WHAT WHY! I SHOULD BE THE FIRST PERSON she can talk to! She shouldn't feel afraid to talk to me!!!!"

But the thing is..... I do this with my friends as well. My close friends....

I wanted to write about this because I know that people are feeling the same way. We almost can't create this strong support with one another as fellow Christians because we don't let our guard/ pride down. There's always something going on. We each have our own battles that we are fighting. 

I'm not saying continuously WORD VOMIT to your BFFL/Mentor.

I am saying that being a Christian I find it hard to approach my Christian friends when I have sinned or am in a viscous cycle of addiction.  I don't tell people what's really going on because I need to "keep my image". WTF. 

Imagine how much harder it would be for non christian friends to approach you when even your own friends don't and also YOU don't approach your own close christian friends!!!!!! (This is myself talking to myself so don't take it personally).

We need to come to our senses that it's not about living this HOLY Pharisee like life.

But LIVING a LIFE of HUMILITY. 

Saying you're not perfect is HUMILITY! 

It's so easy to tell this to God because HE OBVS knows. 

But it's harder to tell your friend/friends this when you know that she knows and you both know what you did was wrong. 

I have said this a thousand times. (Its this tumblr quote I've totally parphrased it) 

"saying that I am a Christian doesn't mean I'm saying I have my life together, it means I am so crappy at doing life on my own and I mess everything up. The only way I can carry on is because JESUS saved me". 

The only way this invisible wall broke between Jess and I; was through the sharing of my testimony. How I came to faith and love Jesus. It was a very special moment not only for Jess to hear that my life was never GREAT HAPPY SUNSHINES but for myself to realize everyone is going through something or has been through something. It was a good reminder for myself to see where I came from and also how far Jesus has been leading me down this road.  

IDK the answers here for everyone... 

But I believe if I start to adopt this open, transparent, true side about me; and to be able to tell what's really going on to my close friends I hope that they would do the same. 

Just like how Jess let her guard down to receive my help. 

I want and need to do the same. 

This is for your own soul. 

Take it or leave it.   

The State rooms (Buckingham palace)

Guess how many times I've been to Buckingham palace?
6 times.
6 FREAKEN TIMES.

This is my thoughts/feelings towards my experience in going inside Buckingham palace (State rooms). We obviously couldn't take photos, but all I can remember is bright lights and gold. SO much gold. Jess and I both felt quite disgusted afterwards..
I thought I do not ever want to get so super rich and have this much trash everywhere. I was reading about the man who tore down his barns to make it bigger so that he can "eat, drink, and be merry for all the days of his life". But he was a fool and died the night after.
These were most of the negative thoughts playing in my head and also my cynical side really sprung up. I've made a nickname for myself "Cynical Cindy".

But on the OTHER HAND, I imagined myself being in the presence of the Queen... and how I wouldn't care less about it. THEN I thought of being in the presence of Jesus and how beautiful and humbling that would be like.
I also thought about what heaven, the KINGDOM of God would be like. Probably a million times bigger, grander and just unimaginable. The reasons I had these thoughts was because I've never been able to picture what heaven or  being literally in front of JESUS would feel like.... but through Buckingham I felt like I could imagine a very small bit of what the real deal of the kingdom of heaven is like... not the earthly kind.
It was good and bad. Bitter sweet.

What happened to...

I'M JUST HAPPY TO BE ON THE TEAM!


I WAS DEAD BUT NOW I'M ALIVE!


NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS IN MY LIFE,


JESUS LOVES ME THIS I KNOW FOR THE BIBLE TELLS ME SO!

(from the podcast: The life of trusting in God - Judah smith )

We need to be able to rejoice in the simple truths about being a Christian. Let's not forget and grow to feel as if these facts are the norm and is mundane.

JESS

I love Jess! She's Canadian ;) 

I love walking and talking, it's such a productive and good way to talk deeper about life. 

So starting from the TOP ^^ 

I met Jess at the health & safety talk that freaked everyone out (they warned us not to walk around at night alone, lots of thieves etc..). Then we saw each other again at the international exchange talk, then again by the computers at the international lounge! 

We exchanged fb details and I contacted her because she was looking for an accommodation! I thought that it was hard enough trying to settle somewhere new! But on top of that trying to find somewhere to stay first would be so stressful. 

SO fast forwarding to today, We've been talking a lot about God and she is actively seeking and participating in all the christian union events and churchy activities we were going to. 

I can remember our first conversation about God and Christianity... where Jess mentioned recently that at the time she couldn't even say "God" but referred to him as a "higher power" because she was afraid to put a label on something. And yesterday JESS BOUGHT HER FIRST BIBLE!! She wants to go to church and is actively wanting to learn more! 

THAT'S ALL GOD RIGHT THERE! He will never leave you, nor forsake you. He used us to help lead Jess to Jesus. She's learnt so much in a span of a month and it's amazing to see this RADICLE change that only God could have done. She knows it's a journey and she also knows that the Lord has been planning this for a very long time. How amazing is our creator? 

Please keep her in your prayers, because it's the start to an amazing life! 

My thought train (choo choo)

I am currently sitting by the River Thames :) (Mmmmm dreamy.)

I was reading Genesis today and I am very early on (getting there). It's when Adam and Eve ate the forbidden fruit, then how they blame each other. If I was Eve I would have been hurt by the betrayal of Adam. Because instead of saying it is my fault too/ OUR FAULT he blames it all on EVE.

SURE!! Eve is no angel she could've just ate the damn fruit and that's that. But she had a moment of kindness where she decided to share this delicious forbidden fruit with her husband. When Genesis said that because of this women would have bad birth pains I threw my bible (jokingly) hahahahaha!

Through this story I thought of how easy it was for people to sway and waver in their beliefs because of other peoples words, values etc.. We can stray in our paths because we get distracted bu a shiny new rule or a way of life that isn't that grand in the end... it ends up being a shiny coin for a moment after it gets used and reused into this disgusting hygienic thing (going off topic).

I want us to be molded into people who don't sway so easily when temptations or other people's way of life/ influences come unto our lives. I want to be like Peter and say I am solid like a ROCK. Because I lean on Jesus the rock (not the actor). We should strive to be grounded in our faith so that we can be sure about what we think and express the truth, and Jesus' love to others. So we can impact the bigger sphere around us; because we're stable.

Angry note to self.

"야, 너 시작 부터 잘~ 한다.. 다른 GATE 에 있는  다음에 또 다른 사람 자리에 안고.... 와... 대박이다!"

Translation: "OI great start, good job for going to the wrong gate and then sitting on someone else's seat on the plane... wow... congrats." 

The type of negative sarcasm I think over in my head.... I hear it in my Mum's voice when sh'es telling me off haha (love you mum). My lack of attention to DETAIL has always been the problem. I blame my Dad genes. I want Mum's.
It's 1:05 pm. I am on the plane, it's a miracle I made it!
But even though I made mistakes I am thankful to have found an introverted spot and reading my book. I probs would've hated everything 20 million times more if I was sitting in a crowded area with so many yappy koreans. But I kind of wish that GATE 11 wasn't so far away from GATE 17 haha....

PLEASE CINDY JANG
GET and then KEEP YOUR HEAD ON STRAIGHT.

Life lessons from family.

02/09/2015

I've heard these points from my mum's best friends, my aunties, my dad, my dads family, grandma :)

1. RESPECT YOUR MUM. 
She is just amazing, so strong willed and diligent. She's gone through so much ever since she was younger, she's definitely a fighter and someone to look up to.

2. I have a ridiculous amount of people encouraging me and that are supporting me.
I have almost forgotten about my family in Korea. I was just living my busy life in New Zealand and not really paying attention anywhere else. But my family is right behind me and that is so encouraging and uplifting. Of course the Lord is with me always but it give me a lot of motivation to study harder, work harder, learn and grow more.

3. Your Dad loves you.

4. Don't chase money but do what you're passionate about ad the rest will follow. 
(from Dad).

My mum went to a course that was running at Church called "healing through childhood wounds..."
And she told me that there was a session where you were writing a letter to your younger self.
"What would you want to tell your younger self today?"
(Have a think about it too).

If I was to write to my younger self... I would tell her; there is hope beyond this. There is light at the end of the tunnel. DON'T GIVE UP. TRUST THE LORD. TURN BACK TO HIM NOW.
You have a tremendous amount of blessings being poured out to you everyday. Rejoice!
Also obey/help/love your mum. xx

- Cindy.

Evangelizing in a society like KOREA

The thoughts/ questions I have while going past Korea on my trip to London.
(WARNING I am sorry for stereotyping people but this is how I saw things were for Koreans in Korea).

Firstly I feel like a foreigner in my own country.... I just don't want to conform to the way their society thinks and behaves but they influence me in someway even though I am here for a very short time.

1. The OUTSIDE (outer shell) means EVERYTHING to them.

I think the core values of mostly every Korean in Korea is to do with how good it's going to look compared to someone else, or if other people look at them.
I've always had a negative image of Koreans (IN Korea or very KOREANY) because they aren't positive people. I was talking to my stepsister (In Korea) about what her plans next year and like what she wanted to do... but she didn't know (which is normal) but the thing that I didn't get was that she couldn't really decide or know what she liked because it's all about money, appearance and materialistic things here.

2. Korea is just BUSY and STRESSFUL.
It's a fast paced country, I'm finding it a bit overwhelming sometimes but you have to just let it past, but have you ever seen ahjumas and grandmas RUN for the metro before? I have haha
The first day I was in Korea is like the perfect example of what Korea is like for those of you who have never been! I was trying to get on the bus and I was trying to find my card and it must have been 5 seconds but the bus driver yelled at me and was like "MISS CAN YOU DO THAT ON THE BUS." Sums up Korea.

My questions is.... How do we evangelize/ get through to others who are brought up in such a shallow/narrow minded society (?)
Idk if this is making sense, but like I know .. it's not in our power to SAVE people at all!
But my Goliath is my non christian family in Korea but I know God's behind Goliath. Maybe he is waiting for me to make the move so he can.

- Rant of the day

Jesus Is ________

I was going through my old notes and this is something I found from the book Jesus is ____ by Judah Smith. It's a really good book and I recommend it to all. It speaks a lot of about GRACE because Jesus is GRACE he's a lot of other things as well and it's beautifully written and clear to understand. Here's a snippet from the book that applies to my life right now.

05/11/2014
The point isn't to quit thinking about sin. It's to quit thinking about self and to think about JESUS. 
It's to become God conscious and not me conscious. Do you know what Law does?  LAW makes us self conscious. When we are self- conscious, we become sin- conscious. We take our eyes off Jesus, and w focus on our failures, our weaknesses, our short comings. And we end up sinning even more because that's all we can think about. But grace makes us God conscious. When we live by grace, we are continually amazed by the love, goodness and holiness of God. We think about him, and that motivates us to act like him. Are you struggling with sin? You need more will- power. You need more Jesus. Loving Jesus, not avoiding sin, is the focal point of our lives. 

Once Jesus is the focal pint, once he is the culmination of life and the pinnacle of our existence, everything else makes sense. Life becomes simple again. Priorities fall into place and peace, joy, and rest return. 

"Come to me," Jesus calls to us today.
"Come to me all you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest." 
Jesus is the point of life. 

GOD is with us and for us 
SIN does not define us. 

The crown of thorns. CREATION MAG

I was reading creation mag the other day and it was really awesome! (I haven't even opened this magazine I had for about 2 years until recently oops).
To sum it up it was looking at what the bible indicated about the thorns that came about after Adam sinned and how if that was the case then MAN would've been created first before the thorns, which would mean evolution is not true. It was super detailed and I'm not science smart enough to grasp all of it but I loved the end of this article.

"But with correct (biblical) view of thorns, Jesus' death on the cross takes a greater 

poignancy (the quality of evoking a keen sense of sadness or regret). On his head he bore 

the consequences of the first man's rebellion against the Creator. If not for Adam's 

sin, there 

would have been no thorns for the Roman soldiers to twist into a 'crown' and force onto 

Jesus' head (John19:2-5). Crowned with thorns, a painful reminder of the consequences of 

the first Adam's sin, Jesus, the 'last Adam' (1 Corinthians 15:45), took upon Himself the 



Curse (Galatians 15:45) so that all who believe in Him are freed from it for eternity. There will be no more death, no more pain, no more curse, no more thorns- praise the "

[A THORNY ISSUE -David Catchpool]

How flippen beautiful is that!

Depression. From Relevant mag. "Can 'real' christians be depressed?"

"

Depression should be treated and can be put into remission through a course of psychoanalysis, cognitive therapy and/or antidepressant medication, supplemented by healthy doses of prayer within a loving Christian community.

It is nonsensical to tell a depressed person that if he only read his Bible more or had better quiet times, his depression would surely be lifted. That would be like telling a diabetic that faith alone will regulate her insulin levels. Faith alone gives eternal salvation, but in the meantime, God has given us resources by which to make our temporal existences more palatable. Depression is certainly healed by the grace of God, sometimes directly and miraculously, but more often through the tools of His servants, like pharmacists, therapists, pastors and friends.     "

Here is the link to the blog I got it from.
http://www.relevantmagazine.com/life/whole-life/features/1976-can-qrealq-christians-be-depressed

The Residents.

These are real people, with real names.
Because I've worked at the village for a while and I see the same residents every week I know what they like and what they don't. I have come to know their pet peeves and habits, it's so interesting to observe. I would've loved to have learnt more about psychology but I thought it would be quite humorous and cute for me to mention some of the regular things I see at work.

Merv the perv: Is really not a Perv and Loui just gave him a terrible nickname, always comes early to pick up his takeaway for him and his wife. He doesn't talk much and he always has to get fruit because he never pays the full price :(

Charles: Always gets the nice dessert. Because he's a regular.

Josephine: Really like to abruptly talk about her personal details of her life. Very bad with self control, she has diabetes so when it comes to deciding what dessert she wants, she cannot say no to that yummy 10000 calorie sugar filled banana fritter with ice cream.

June: hates being moved and always slow in the cue because she likes to take her time (so cute).

Sheila: Just makes you SCREAM out what the desserts are even though I bet she can read the board and she knows what it is already.

Ron: Always the last to finish his meal.

Stewart: Doesn't like custard or any liquidy stuff with any of his hot meals a part from ice cream, they all love ice cream.

Allan: Had a knee surgery because he tried to rush up and get in front of all the women and be the first in line HAHA. He always gets the jelly for dessert.

Jeanie: Is cute. Always ALWAYS says thank you and goodnight to everyone. Which is more than what it means. We may be the last ones to see her alive that night.

Jimmy: No matter what always wants fruit with his dessert.

Ron: has a very big laugh and is such a people person.

Ivy: So sweet but has called me with 3 different names in the past year and half. Jasmine, Jascinda, Luscinda. I never corrected her haha!

Mary: Great sense of humor, hillarious! Always says it's my fault for handing out the desserts when she's the one who picks it. She always says she feels guilty picking the "bad" dessert hahaha

Faith: Likes to eat just custard in a bowl when there is custard with pie, pudding or crumble. Very strange lol

They have the same things over and over and over again, I think I would go cray.

People have rice for dessert. That is culturally weird for me. Rice for breakfast, lunch and dinner... then dessert. That sounds terrible.

Those were some of the things/antics I can remember about the residents that I work for and care about :)

Audrey

Those of you who know me, know that I work at a retirement village (5 mins away from my house), as a kitchen assistant and it is the most rewarding job.
Not because I get paid more than my minimum wage with food rather than the 2 hours of work I do.
But it's the people which I find the best.

I have to resign from my job very soon.  

I know for new doors to open you have to always let go and close the doors you are so familiar with. Sometimes that's such a great feeling to finally move on; but this time I feel great to be opening this new door but at the same time I am feeling really sad to say goodbye. 

I just love spending my time with the people there.

Anyway, I've gotten really close to 2 of the residents there. Their names are June and Audrey and they are best friends. Sometimes they can't stand each other and most times they're like 2 peas in a pod. Just the cutest! I think June is 89 and Audrey is 95! Both quite healthy for their age and still going strong. I've lately become very close with Audrey, and I told her that I was leaving for England soon and that I would have to stop working at Parklane. We both got really sad about it and cried. 

I hugged her and then I told her about God.
And we had this mean chat which brought more tears to our eyes.

She is currently at cross roads. She doesn't think she can become this "true follower", I've tried to explain it to her many times that all she has to do is accept the Lord into her life, know that she has done wrong in the past and knows that the Lord has saved her. And actually want that true relationship with Jesus. But she keeps thinking that all the hard work her and her husband have put in to achieve; like living at the retirement village, those antiques she has locked away in her cabinets... was all for nothing.. I think she can't let that go. I so so want her to be saved. But that is not something I can control or do anything about.  
The funny thing is she kept repeating "Cind, you've put the cat amongst the pigeons", "You're a decptive little thing aren't you!" "I'm 95 years old and I have never ever had this kind of conversation in my whole entire life!". She repeated that about 10 times but I love it. 

The thing is... there is no such thing as coincidence.

There is no COINCIDENCE that I got the job at Parklane. 

There is no COINCIDENCE that I am still there after 1 year and 6 months. 

There is no COINCIDENCE that out of the 50 residents at the retirement village that come down for their meals I became close to Audrey. 

There is no COINCIDENCE at that moment God told me to go see Audrey and then nudged me to speak to her about the Lord. 

THERE IS A REASON why you are at your school, uni, work place today working along side the people you are with NOW. God has put people specifically around you and in your path for some REASON. It takes time. And that's what I learnt, it's never this instant connection with people and then somehow they say YES to Jesus and life is all good for them. It takes time, but plant that seed and God will do the rest. Be patient.

Lastly Please please please, pray for Audrey she is very dear to me and I will miss her very much. I hope to see her when I get back from my trip. But if I don't I pray that she will find the truth and accept the Lord into her life.
21/07/2015

IMAGERY

I went to St Pauls today.
I got quite a few images and things from God!

▲ Grace is not like filing in a long and complex application. 

Currently my life has just been me applying for a million things for my exchange programme. I think maybe that's why I'm not like ecstatic because it hasn't hit me yet. I'm still applying for my visa and honestly its such a drag. I know I shouldn't be complaining at all because it's SUCH A BLESSING to be able to go! 
It's an answer to prayer! 
But I've been in this mindset that I have a 'to do list' that never stops which is normal to everyone but mostly all of them is filling out a form with my personal details for something. I have treated God's grace this way as well. I kept thinking that I have a list of things to do and fill this massive gap to be able to have my sins forgiven. He loves us when we suck. He loves us when we fail. 

"You don't have to go through the long and hard application to be saved and forgiven by me."

▲ Symbols/action figures on a shelf.

On a very pretty, authentic, vintage shelf there is a cross, food, my fav kdrama, my studies, and..... some boy.
What will you choose?
It's my decision that dictate everything. 
What am I going to reach for today? 
I pray and hope it's the cross. 

▲ Building a relationship with God instead of building more of a relationship with someone (earthly).

What matters in the end?

▲ Our faith is like a staircase. (From Katie Ward)

We go through the same thing over and over. It's the same lesson but we grow each and every step. Even if we feel stationary and we've learnt the same lesson before. We're growing in it. I doubt that I am most times, but he is making my faith stronger and developing my character as his follower all the time. Even through it's the same dumb ditch I've fallen into. Even though it's the same chains that hold me down. God is going to make a breakthrough happen. 

On a more serious note...

We know that when we're in primary and younger it's your friend circles that are our biggest problem. Who plays with who and the things we talk about are generally focused on it. 

In secondary school it's focused more on who's dating who and who likes who. 
HINT HINT Girls talk the most about boys haha 
but when u get older those mini problems like trying to find a part time job anywhere turns into going into a time of recession and being unemployed for good. 

Serious shit like abortion, divorce and actually working really really hard at a full time job. 
The little problems that looked so massive to us at that season in life are actually... nothing compared to what "adult life" is like. Reality hit me like a storm... a punch in the face.... a bite on the bum... a kick in the knees... a poke in the eye.. u get the gist. 

We focus on any kind of problem just to have something to talk about, complain or to have something to be upset about. Because we're filling up our void that only the lord can fill with unnecessary little nitty gritty problems. Even the big problems to the Lord is not big enough. 

Matt 6:33. Seek God. Even through the mess he may not clean it all up, he's there with you in that mess. 


The song "When the going gets tough the tough gets going" has been stuck in my head this whole week. And I love the saying. WE ARE THE TOUGH ONES. 
WE KEEP GOING, KEEP FIGHTING because JESUS makes us TANK AS. 

xoxo 

Wise words from Sydney

2 DOGS..

1 BLACK                                         1 WHITE

They are constantly fighting,

Who will win?

Whichever you feed the most. 

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The purpose of this blog:

I want to be transparent and not wear a mask. I want to be the same Cindy at church, home, uni, work, dance, etc..

These are just my thoughts and my questions, revelations and quiet times. God is always speaking to us. 

Also I don't think there is enough good news that is shared in this world. The most insignificant things can give hope to others or impact someone. 

Also it's such a therapeutic thing to just vent!! Please let me know if I have any spelling mistakes or grammar issues cause its like not telling someone who has food in their teeth and them later finding out...... that's the worst! (Haha pesto). Also constructive criticism is totally welcomed here...

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