Last night I woke up at 3:30am restless from my sleep, usually
I just sleep right through it.
But I woke up with a clear thought, a scary one of having a
permanent marking on my body and also getting it done with Blake who was coming
in 14 hours or so. Maybe it was the excitement of my mind knowing that Blake
was coming that day or it was the scary thought of getting my tattoo and then
the curiosity of what would I get started to play on my mind.
I have always said that I would never get a Tattoo just for
the sake of one. And also not a verse just in case I worked in an area that was
not a Christian area… or executed Christians…
But then I was wondering, "what if I get it somewhere that
nobody can see it"… but then I was like my mum is going to see it in the
changing rooms or something… She will check my body haha. Idk it may be
something momentary that I am so fixated on at the moment.
I am currently thinking of getting my shell ring (a
minimalistic) design on my chest, bottom of my bra.Or a very small flower in the middle of my ribs.
But I am again just swayed by conversations from my flatmates and cheap prices
in Thailand, for a very important marking on my body.
I have read my favourite verse once again 2 Corinthians
12:10.
But before that in verse 9 which explains “When I am weak
then I am strong.”
“But he said to me ’My Grace is sufficient for you, for my
power is made perfect in weakness.’ Therefore I will boast all the more gladly
about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. THAT IS WHY, for
Christ’s sake I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in
persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.”
This was the whole reason for my tattoo which I may or may
not get. Because of Christ’s power I can boast about my weaknesses because he
went through them all and his grace; that we are so underserving of. Your power
is all the more powerful and glorified through our hardships and sufferings.
Wouldn’t the displaying of my tattoo to everyone show that I
am boasting about my weakness because his grace covered it all and that is why
I shall not be fearful because he has it all under control? I am secure in his
love. I am secure in my faith because of him, and this is not my own doing.
I am weak so therefore I can be strong on my own?… NO but it
is a statement, showing that I cannot be strong on my own. Again and again I
will be humbled by it and I will abide in him, and put my crown down at his
feet.
I will pray about it, but it is written in my heart even if it not written on my body.
"For I am yours, and you are mine."
